{"id":576,"date":"2021-05-08T08:05:05","date_gmt":"2021-05-08T08:05:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/darkomailarchief.nl\/?p=576"},"modified":"2022-08-11T08:23:09","modified_gmt":"2022-08-11T07:23:09","slug":"ik-wil-er-maar-een-diegene-die-mij-niet-wil","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/darkomailarchief.nl\/?p=576","title":{"rendered":"Ik wil er maar een: diegene die mij niet wil."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Al&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">die<\/span>&nbsp;gebroken harten. Al&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">die<\/span>&nbsp;onbeantwoorde liefdes.&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">Ik<\/span>&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">wil<\/span>&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">niet<\/span>&nbsp;wat&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">ik<\/span>&nbsp;kan krijgen.&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">Ik<\/span>&nbsp;verlang juist naar wat&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">mij<\/span>&nbsp;nauwelijks aandacht geeft.<br \/>\n\u200b<br \/>\n<span class=\"il\">Ik<\/span>&nbsp;ga&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">niet<\/span>&nbsp;voor het makkelijke.&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">Ik<\/span>&nbsp;ga voor potentieel het meest pijnlijke. Want als het lukt&#8230; Oh. Dan hoef&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">ik<\/span>&nbsp;daarna waarschijnlijk niets anders meer. En als het weer mislukt, ga&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">ik<\/span>&nbsp;op in mijn pijn.<br \/>\n\u200b<br \/>\nOmdat&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">ik<\/span>&nbsp;de pijn aan kan. Omdat&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">die<\/span>&nbsp;pijn nog heel vaak gaat komen in het leven. Omdat mensen me altijd&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">maar<\/span>&nbsp;(tijdelijk) willen als ze me eindelijk zien staan.<br \/>\n\u200b<br \/>\nAls ze&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">mij<\/span>&nbsp;kunnen krijgen, kunnen ze ook anderen krijgen. Zij willen meer. Niets missen.&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">Ik<\/span>&nbsp;ben&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">niet<\/span>&nbsp;zo ambitieus en verwend. Integendeel.&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">Ik<\/span>&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">wil<\/span>&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">er<\/span>&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">maar<\/span>&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">een<\/span>:&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">diegene<\/span>&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">die<\/span>&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">mij<\/span>&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">niet<\/span>&nbsp;<span class=\"il\">wil<\/span>.<br \/>\n\u200b<br \/>\n#<wbr>bekentenissenuithetondergronds<wbr>e<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Al&nbsp;die&nbsp;gebroken harten. Al&nbsp;die&nbsp;onbeantwoorde liefdes.&nbsp;Ik&nbsp;wil&nbsp;niet&nbsp;wat&nbsp;ik&nbsp;kan krijgen.&nbsp;Ik&nbsp;verlang juist naar wat&nbsp;mij&nbsp;nauwelijks aandacht geeft. \u200b Ik&nbsp;ga&nbsp;niet&nbsp;voor het makkelijke.&nbsp;Ik&nbsp;ga voor potentieel het meest pijnlijke. Want als het lukt&#8230; Oh. Dan hoef&nbsp;ik&nbsp;daarna waarschijnlijk niets anders meer. En als het weer mislukt, ga&nbsp;ik&nbsp;op in mijn pijn. \u200b Omdat&nbsp;ik&nbsp;de pijn aan kan. Omdat&nbsp;die&nbsp;pijn nog heel vaak gaat komen in het leven. Omdat mensen&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[14,35,29,32],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-576","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-bekentenissen-uit-het-ondergrondse","category-bundel-ik-mis-je-nog-steeds","category-liefde","category-slapen-met-darko"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/darkomailarchief.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/576","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/darkomailarchief.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/darkomailarchief.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/darkomailarchief.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/darkomailarchief.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=576"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/darkomailarchief.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/576\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1127,"href":"https:\/\/darkomailarchief.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/576\/revisions\/1127"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/darkomailarchief.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=576"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/darkomailarchief.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=576"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/darkomailarchief.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=576"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}